I don't like someone using someone against me, like I can't handle my life.  Does this prove the lie?  Why can't I just go to bed feeling good after doing what others find nasty?  I was dodging being bad.  I will not take lies and harsh treatment, when others treat me much better.  I mean lying that I did something.  This is my personal journal.  I will not sit here and calculate the things that go by like this.  I'll just post it.  This is where I think my thoughts out and get help.